Easter Sunday

This first part is going to sound like a lot of bs, so you have been warned if you read on. Basically I have been wondering why it seems as if things get harder to do as we get older. The amount of time it takes between being assigned a task - be it study for classes, errands, or just essential daily duties - and accomplishing that task seems to increase with age. I can only base what I am thinking of course on myself, so bear this in mind for my example. When I was younger - say any time between middle school and late grade 11 - I would almost always do my homework when I got home. It didn't matter that something was on television - although I will admit that this was the time that the programming on YTV was slowly going into decline and began to not be worth watching - or that I had just trekked all the way back home from school in some sort of extreme weather condition. I just did my work. Then I would practice my music and have the rest of the night to myself. What's important for this is that this rigorous schedule was setup and maintained by myself. My parents didn't constantly remind me that I should do some work or practice I just did it myself. It is what got me to where I was in music and to continue to try in school.

My driving force appeared to disintegrate at the end of Grade 11. I have no logical reasoning for it; when I think of that point only flimsy reasons can be brought forth. However at this point I stopped trying as hard to do the homework, stopped practicing as much, and just started to coast - well at least coasting relative to how I was working before. It didn't have much of an effect on the overall results of the year. What it did have an effect on was how I continued to interact and accomplish tasks from that point on.

I never have thought myself as a flaky person until I started coasting. It was odd, certain parts of my life that should've been a priority were instead put on the backburner and in some instances were even abandoned without reason. It continued into the rest of high school and basically made the rest of high school into luck as I never would study enough or do the amount of work that I used to put into everything. Anyway, these sorts of vague actions continued even up to now. Of course by the end of first year university I realized exactly what was going on and started to try to put a stop to it, but remnants linger and continue to gum up the works; I am currently supposed to be studying but I decided that I should reflect on this issue instead.

It's rather odd when I think about it. It's just odd that it sort of develops and sticks around. I also find it odd that despite someone having the intention and desire to do something it does not necessarily translate into the action being completed to the degree sought after.
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Alright, so today is Easter Sunday. It is a rather odd Easter for me as it is the first Easter that I have not been home for. A combination of work and studying had me decide that it would be better for me to stay in Montreal. It's odd though as this is the most lowkey Easter has been at home as well. My sister is in Calgary still and my dad has to adjudicate for a music festival this weekend. My mom sort of has the place all to herself. Despite us thinking she might feel a little lonely she seems to have just made it into one of the most productive weekends I have heard of in a while.

Back into the focus of Easter though. It's weird how few Easter traditions I can keep out here. What made some of the traditions special was that they were at home. We haven't painted eggs in years at home because we started to have a buildup, but we still put them out every year. If I were home there probably would've still been Easter baskets and some other Easter fare around. I was still able to grab fish and chips on Friday (usually our preferred good friday dinner) and eat the chocolate my mom sent me today, but it obviously isn't the same.

Anyway, back to studying I go as getting some information in my brain would be fantastic tonight.

Yo Derrick

Hey, you happy now?